“Thunderstorms are as much our friends as the sunshine.” ― Criss Jami, Killosophy
December 23, 2016
I’m sitting outside right now and it is beautiful.
Living in Southern California, we don’t get that much rain let alone rainstorms. Yet, for the past couple of days, it has been a rain filled with overcast skies and the roaring sound of rain. There isn’t much that I miss about the Pacific Northwest, but I definitely missed the rain and the smell of the earth after a good storm.
As the year comes to a close, these are the days that I love the most. The world seems so much calmer and I feel as if my mind is a lot more relaxed. I tend to write better as well. Yet, something is fogging my mind lately and I am not sure what to do about it. Everytime I sit down to write, I just stare at a blank page and hope and pray that something comes out. I have been having trouble with plot lines. I know my characters, but it’s their story that isn’t coming to me. What should they be doing? That is the big question here. I want the story to go so many different ways that it’s becoming jumbled and incoherent and that is bugging me so much! Why can’t the brain just stay on one thought path? Just for a moment, please!
Writer’s block has never really been a huge factor because I CAN WRITE. I can whip out a short story in an hour, it’s just this book. I know I want to write it and I will. Maybe I am not ready to write something so complex or perhaps I am just thinking about it too much, I tend to do that a lot. Let’s take it back to something a bit more simpler: Why did I decide to become a writer?
Ever since I was a kid, I’ve had a vast imagination that creates the most bizarre scenarios. For example, when I was little I was obsessed with mermaids. I had this little Hello Kitty notebook and I used to write these stories about how I was a mermaid and that it was this big secret and I thought I was so cool. It was really ridiculous, but it sort of gave me that little push in the right direction. Then there is “Harry Potter”. I read the Potter books when I was pretty young and they really got me into reading…for a short while. For the next six or seven years I didn’t really read much. If I did it was Maximum Ride or required reading for school. It wasn’t until the Twilight novels that I got back into the swing of things. From there I read the Hunger Games, Maze Runner, Beautiful Creatures, Fault in Our Stars, and of course The Mortal Instruments. Cassandra Clare’s books were the final touches for my dream of becoming an Author.
She had this simple idea and then it turned into this fantastic world of warlocks and angels and Shadowhunters and it is incredible. I really think that it is one of the best Young Adult series out there. I am currently re-reading them and on book 2 and let me tell you how nice it is to revisit this world and get to know the characters all over again.
Writing isn’t easy and because of that, I love it so much. There is something so satisfying about unleashing a story from inside your mind and allowing other people to read it and enjoy it. I always like to say that when you read a book, you are basically reading the author’s mind. Think about it, at one time those thoughts were solely in their mind, completely private and now they are out there to enjoy and fall in love with.
I think my favourite part about writing would be that I can become someone else for a bit. That is what really drives me when I write, the escapism. For a few hours at a time, I can just sit and go into my characters and create and I think that is what writing is all about. Imagination is the heart and soul of a writer and even if mine goes a bit haywire most of the time, it still helps me get through a lot. I use writing as a bit of diversion to life. If I am having a horrible day or just need a break, I’ll write. It’s that simple.
It’s getting a bit cold now, but I think I can stick it out a bit longer. I have my Harry Potter sweater on and there is hot tea inside that I can get soon. My family went to Best Buy, so I am waiting for them to get back as well. However, as I stare into the moody skies of today and see the ripple of fresh rain in the puddles on the street, I am reminded of a quote by Darren Shan. It says:
“This world was made to be cloaked in gray. It wouldn’t feel natural if the sun shone brightly all the time.” ― Darren Shan, Bec
We all need a little gray in our lives, how else would we see the rest of the colors? I hope you all have a happy Friday.