“October proved a riot a riot to the senses and climaxed those giddy last weeks before Halloween.” – Keith Donohue
October 31, 2016
This month for me when it comes to reading was such a bust! I only read one book which was Magnus Chase and the Gods of Asgard: The Hammer of Thor and though it was good, it was still the only piece of literature I enjoyed. I also just realized how much of a run on sentence that was, whoops. I used to enjoy October. As a kid, it was my favourite month because of Halloween. Where I grew up, Halloween and autumn was celebrated like you see in the movies. We had festivals and trick or treating…it was the best. Now, as I am 19 and suffer from extreme anxiety, Halloween has become rather boring.
For instance, I am sitting in bed with my mother waiting for Dancing With The Stars to start. I have been watching Graceland all day and will probably need to take some Unisom to get to sleep. Sound fun, right?
At the beginning of the month, I had a lot of ambition when it comes to life, but it slowly shifted. I did start dancing again, but I am not enjoying it as much as I thought I would. Sure, I love the girls I am dancing with and what we are creating is beautiful…However, something is still bothering me about it. Can you truly just stop loving something that you spent years loving? I hope not. Dance used to be such an escape for me and now…I don’t know. It’s probably just all in my head, you know?
I have not made any progress on my book. I have too many ideas floating in my head and I can’t seem to choose one. However, I hope to get something done before the end of the year…Don’t all writers say that?
One good thing this month was that I was given a very cool opportunity that will be up on this blog by Friday! I am going to pull a YouTuber and not tell you! Ha!
Even though I have not been working on my book, I have been writing. As an aspiring author, you should always be writing. It doesn’t have to make sense, but you have to do it. I think that is why I like this blog so much. I can just ramble for a few paragraphs and get my writing out. I also have a journal, but only for my eyes.
When it comes to the changing of the seasons…I tend to think a lot about life. I bet a lot of you are worried that I am about to get super deep…sorry. As a child, I always associated September with the beginning of a new year rather January. It was probably because I would be starting school, but in a way it makes sense. The summer air is gone and the leaves are changing and our thoughts go to warmer clothing and brisk nights. Our state of mind changes just like the leaves. My mood changes as well. I prefer cooler weather and as soon as the world turns gray and misty, I am a lot happier.
It is 7:56 at night, on Halloween. I am listening to The Devil’s Tear by Angus and Julia Stone and icing my back. I wish I had a steaming mug of cider, but I’m all out…I am my tumblr blog…no regrets. The other day I watched all four Halloweentown movies and I have no regrets that I stayed up till 4 am to watch them.
There is something I want you to think about. Where are you in your life right now? Mentally, I mean. Now I want you to think about how you were a year ago? Big difference? Let me know in the comments.
Let’s Have an Even Better November!