November 28, 2015
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Am I doing this right? I can’t be sure. I haven’t blogged in over a month and it feels weird. The year is almost over and I have done pretty much nothing. I am not even sure if this blog has grown in audience. The purpose of this blog was to just say what I felt, yet lately nothing seems right…nothing I say seems important.
I won’t say that I’m back because I say it every time I have these small break. So on that note, how about a catch up?
I finished the perks of being a wallflower and it is my all time favorite book and movie pretty much. If you have seen or read it then you know why I’m sure. I am going to try and read Looking for Alaska again, but I am thinking of maybe reading something a little happier. As for my own book, I scratched my original idea. I wasn’t passionate about the story line and I was losing touch with my characters. So I am going down a new road and hopefully something will come out of it.
This whole gap year thing is started to go by very fast and I still don’t know what to do when my time is up. Do I go to school? I should. Do I want to? Sort of. Will I? Probably not. I want to be a writer and to do that I know I should go get a degree, but I just don’t see the point of another four to six years of voluntary school. Then there’s acting. I have been thinking that I should try that, you never know right? Also dance is there as well. Yet since I graduated from my studio and haven’t been dancing as much I can truthfully say that I don’t really miss it. Is that bad? I don’t know. The past 4 to 5 years has been dance and school. Maybe I need to explore other areas of my life…I don’t know.
Due to recent world events I have realized that life is short and I don’t want to spend it in a classroom or from behind a desk in a high rise. I want to do something creative and challenging, but I don’t want to do it the conventional way. Also there is the subject of love. Recently I have been feeling very lonely. I was never the girl in high school that was chasing after boys, I guess I just sort of let them come to me. That only happened once. Now I am looking for some companionship. Wow, that makes me sound like a mid 50’s woman. Both of my sisters are in great relationships, one of them, married. It’s just me and my cat…this is really sad. Maybe one day I’ll meet a nice writer in a coffee shop and we will compare notes or something, right now I need to figure my life out.
This turned to rambling really fast, but then again that is pretty much my whole blog isn’t it? I should go. Hope you all had a great day and if you’re American I hope you had a great thanksgiving.
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