August 14, 2015
Hello Hello Hello.
I am writing this mere minutes after finishing Thirteen Reasons Why by Jay Asher. Why? This book has left a mark on me that I don’t think I will ever forget. I figured I would write this while my impression of it was till fresh.
I won’t go into detail about the novel, that is for you to enjoy. I only wish to tell you of my thoughts when it came to the haunting stories of Hannah Baker.
The synopsis is as followed:
Clay Jensen returns home from school to find a mysterious box with his name on it lying on his porch. Inside he discovers cassette tapes recorded by Hannah Baker—his classmate and crush—who committed suicide two weeks earlier.
On tape, Hannah explains that there are thirteen reasons why she decided to end her life. Clay is one of them. If he listens, he’ll find out how he made the list.
All thirteen reasons combine to make a universal struggle in which Hannah had faced during her life. I experienced so many emotions throughout every story. There was pain, sadness, joy, confusion, and just plain anger. Yet, in the end I understood. I have never personally experienced anything that Hannah had gone through in my eighteen years on this planet, but I understood the fear she had.
Throughout the novel, you will hear of thirteen stories all involving different people, some who made her life worse, others made her life better, and some who were just there to help, but she didn’t know it.
As someone who has dealt with depression and is still currently dealing, I can somehow relate to every thought Hannah had without visualizing my own experience to go along with hers.
The story follows Clay, and how he hears the tapes for the first time and how he plays into her story. A lot of the time I could relate to Clay as well as Hannah. There are two sides to every story and I got both.
This book has been on my shelf for about a year now and I am probably the last person to read it. It was just one of those books that everyone was reading and in my head I felt somewhat obligated to endure the story of Hannah Baker. Yet, I didn’t for about eleven months. Why? I didn’t want to read something just because it was on the NY Times Best Seller’s list. I wanted to read it when I felt connected to it. This past week I have been slipping back into my state of emptiness and it is honestly scaring me.
I remembered that I had this book and thought that reading about someone else’s story, even if she is a fictional character, may help me cope with my own emotional issues. I read this book cover to cover in six hours.
That’s a new record for me! I read Paper Towns by John Green in about thirty-six hours and The Twilight Saga: New Moon in about fourteen, but I have been skipping a lot due to the lack of Edward. Anyways, I didn’t realize how long I had been reading this novel till I looked at the clock and it was almost seven fifteen. It is definitely a page turner.
I want you to read this book, and if you have read it, read it again, and let me know how you relate to Hannah’s story. Is it personal? Do you know someone? Have you lost someone? You can message me anonymously on my tumblr if you wish.
One last note if you or someone you know are struggling like Hannah was, please speak up. You can email me, you can talk to a school counselor, you can talk to anyone, just as long as you are not suffering in silence because I know what that is like and it is not something I wish on any of my readers.
I would say I wish you happiness, but not everyone needs that. So, I wish you anything you are need of, even if it is just someone to say, “Hey, thank you for being you.”
So yeah, I think I’ll say that.
Thank you, for being you.